regarding my minor clarinet crashout a few posts ago:


hehehehe i found a different solo to do instead!!

while i absolutely adore and cherish mozart's clarinet concerto, my a clarinet cannot handle that ㅠㅠ

however, my bb clarinet can handle saint saens's clarinet sonata!! (plus i already learned most of it for an audition a few years ago >:3)

i updated my profile to include my boundaries

please respect them.

they’ve been broken enough times

this is mainly for my sake but this is what i believe will allow a healthy relationship to sprout - it starts with the respecting of one’s personal boundaries!

dont be afraid to let others know when they’re being too much or going too far! your own boundaries deserve to be respected just as much as you respect other people’s boundaries!!

if you purposefully try to push someone too far or pester them relentlessly, nlock me. go for it. i refuse to interact with someone who refuses to respect my own boundaries that i set myself for my own sake.

today’s quite a day to be passionate, isn’t it?

#AIwillNEVERbeART

why use ai? theres so many better options. if you want to make money easily, study. if you want to be popular or famous, find a hobby and practice.

dont earn money or fame through the work of a digital, completely mechanised, frowned-upon ai.

if you are profiting off of scamming people, stealing their time, attention, and money with “hard work” that you didn’t even create, then leave. i won’t be nice about it.

because there are genuinely talented artists working their butts off to create their own pieces of art by hand, while you are just inputting text or an image into generative artificial intelligence - artificial.

if you think that using ai to create what you call “art” is a) morally right, b) profitable, or c) socially/emotionally beneficial, then you are wrong. (met character count will continue in comments)

sigh i have to audition for this really good orchestra

but the solo piece that i chose was written for a clarinet

luckily i do have an a clarinet but its of terrible quality

but i dont want to use my bb because the a has a warmer sound

but the a is actually not good and some of the notes dont come out well/barely/at all 😭😭😭

am i cooked or am i cooked

you can imagine the agony i felt when i realised that there was gonna be a kpop concert of my favorite group on the evening of my birthday and i learned that i couldnt go sigh

retook the enneagram test :3

but then after some thorough research...

i am literally 1/2 of type 2 and 1/2 of type 9 :skull:

things that ill miss about korea

silly edition cause if i talk seriously then ill miss korea

a) recognizing 95% of the songs that are playing when i walk into a store/restaurant/etc
- yes my kpop addiction is this bad

b) actually having a normal sized head
- i look like my dad, who has a very big head in comparison to people in 'murica (but in korea i had a normal sized head *le gasp*

c) BIG AND PUBLIC BUT FEEELING PRIVATE PUBLIC BATHROOMS
- as a person residing in america- YES THE TOILETS IN KOREA ARE THAT NICE LIKE BRO THEY'RE SO NICE AMERICA LEARN FROM THIS :sob:

NO MATTER GAY STRAIGHT OR BI

LESBIAN TRANSGENDER LIFE

IM ON THE RIGHT TRACK BABY

I WAS BORN TO SURVIVE

(i got excited so i’m posting this two hours early lmao)

HAPPY PRIDE MONTHHHHHH

(also clearly this is the lee youngji and an yujin cover cause a) their vocals and b) every single edit iykyk)

i (being one who loves to travel down rabbit holes of research) am pretty sure that i have aphantasia ᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤ

im gonna take a small break from ph to focus on my mental health a bit <33

knowing me im probably just gonna every now and then pop in to check notifs but thats all im gonna do

if you want to keep in contact, message me on discord!!

(user: royalultima_ )

that feeling when youre fully prepared for a super big concert and is all pumped up

just for you to accidentally snap your reed in half (horizontally) and nobody else has a spare reed 😔😔😔

no i wasnt crying cause of a stupidly emotionally moving ad about car crashes and car insurance 😭😭😭

is it concerning if the only actual friends/acquaintances ive made solely by myself are either all adults or little little kids

like im practically friends with the lunch man at my school, my spanish teacher

and when i was younger my best friend in 4th grade was my teacher and my old third grade teacher (who i only had for two weeks)-

its much easier to befriend adults than people my age 😭😭😭

(but to my friends here and outside of online ily <3)

i did not wish to hear my sister scream like a madman because she got a cramp in her leg-

i feel a little bad yes

but i legitimately thought that someone broke in and was like gonna rob us or something ㅠㅠ

the bbc radio recording of romeo and juliet makes romeo sound like an anime 40 year old man

very sebastian michaelis vibes

back for one second to just mentally crash out cause a girl next to me said that “[whats up pop on expert] was an easy boss song”

maam

no-

gonna be poofed till the end of aps :)

today one of my teachers helped me understand this concept

and i cant help but apply it to people lmao

the heartland can also be a shatterbelt region

(aka: even the best, most talented people are able to break or shatter, especially under pressure*)

so try not to be too hard on yourselves im looking at a few people *ahem* :))

*eastern europe (not ussr) during the cold war especially

i was reading notes my friends and old teachers left for me in my yearbook when i graduated from middle school


I SWEAR IM NOT CRYING 😭😭😭

for you mom

some policies i stick by heehee

- respect has to be earned *ahem* mother *ahem*

- treat others the way you wished to be treated *AHEM AHEM* MOTHER *AHEM AHEM*