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Krimes OFFLINE   Forum Posts: 191 |
Posted: Tue, 08/08/2017 01:21 (8 Years ago) |
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Smeargle Link(s): 744, 71, 120 Payment: pd [b]Total Number of Tickets:[/b} 3 [Read more] |
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Krimes OFFLINE Forum Posts: 191 |
Posted: Wed, 03/05/2017 01:13 (8 Years ago) |
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I'm lucky and I have always been. Others must think so too as from a young age until I went away to university I was bullied, and even then some into my professional life. At a young age I was diagnosed as being hard of hearing, I wore hearing aids like a second skin, I knew nothing else. I didn't think I was different, sure I couldn't say half my sounds, but the friends who played with me mattered. I was lucky, I had two older brothers who looked out for me at school. I never knew this when I was younger but if they heard a child was bullying me they would come to my defence. As I grew older I got sick and was put on steroids, they messed with my emotions giving me violent mood swings and a temper. I struggled with looking like an over-inflated beach ball, but otherwise stayed upbeat. My parents introduced me to horses and I found my passion in life. I could do anything and everything I dreamt of. In middle school, I got better and the steroids were done. However the drugs effected some of my emotional development. The horses became my refuge. I was bullied nonstop. I became a recluse or a loner at school, my grades were mediocre, but for once a week, I got to ride and for that I made it to high school. I got my first horse as a gift for pulling up my grades, he gave me a purpose, a new social group where I could keep up. School friends faded away as they tolerated my existence for school projects. I was never invited to parties, didn't go to prom, but it was okay. I had my horse, until I didn't. I got to university, I had outgrown my horse and sold him to a little girl who I knew would love him (and she did). With the money I got from his sale I wasn't ready to buy another horse. I opted to lease instead. The pressure I felt from my barn to buy a horse right away was so immense. For some reason they were under the illusion that I came from a wealthy family. If wealth equals love, yes I was rich. Financially not so much. Nonetheless, I was lucky. I got bullied, and cast out of my social group, I was suddenly not good enough for them. When I eventually found my horse of a lifetime they proceeded to emotionally abuse me. Calling me princess because they knew what the horse I bought was advertised for.... Over 75% more than what I paid. They didn't know the story of how I got him, but they didn't want to know either. I was still a rich kid to them, regardless of how kind I was, favours I did. I started giving up. My passion, was being driven away from me by mean girls. They infiltrated my safe place. I was tired, my grades at school were failing, I was defeated and on one winter day on the road to the farm to ride, I intentionally drove off the road toward a telephone pole. I was lucky. Something triggered in the last split seconds and I pulled out. I called my mom and told her EVERYTHING. I went to the barn, I hugged my horse. I knew I was lucky to have him in my life, I couldn't leave him. My mother met me there and that weekend I went home. I got a chance to see my family, my brothers and be reminded of what I had going for me. I got help. I went to therapists, took notes on anti-bullying and how to get out of situations. I left university and travelled for 3 months to find myself before coming back and finding a job. I moved my horse to a new barn, never spoke to any of those girls again. I never needed to. When I see them I politely wave and move on. I had an amazing childhood, but in my case the moment my safe place was destroyed I was shattered. I lost sight in who I was to myself, and what I meant to the people who loved me. I was lucky, and I was strong. I got help when I recognised that I needed it. Since then I have been a strong advocate for those who can't, I help friends when they need advice, and my couch is there when they need it. Things can get better, and it's okay to ask for help. My palpad is always open. [Read more] |
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Krimes OFFLINE Forum Posts: 191 |
Posted: Tue, 02/05/2017 20:27 (8 Years ago) |
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Smeargle Name(s): 51 Payment: 10 normal gems Total Number of Tickets: 1 [Read more] |
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Krimes OFFLINE Forum Posts: 191 |
Posted: Thu, 16/02/2017 05:34 (8 Years ago) |
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Krimes OFFLINE Forum Posts: 191 |
Posted: Thu, 02/02/2017 21:55 (8 Years ago) |
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Username: Krimes I Am Sending Items To: Morrowind Comments: love this idea! Donating: Lugia voucher and a protein [Read more] |