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Waltz OFFLINE   Forum Posts: 833 |
Posted: Sun, 06/05/2018 15:57 (7 Years ago) |
still remainsregarding bitter valentine-post: tackle [borderlands 2] and [pkmn crystal] first, b/c they either take up too much space or are almost finished anyways!! pläcehölder list of rl tasks b/c I can't seem to put them all in one place: considered doneif you think about it, saturate is about a suicidal person that was close on ending it all but fell in love and now wants to live forever b/c life finally feels worth living. saturate:
"fill (something or someone) with something until no more can be held or absorbed" ahh this is beautiful dear diary (reader), I've been doing a lot of thinking these days. Not only negative brooding, but also hopeful expecting. Things are getting better. I just need to get back into planning and keep myself busy. There's a lot to look forward to, some of the upcoming lectures actually sound really interesting and I'm hoping to get invested in those. Kanye might be dropping new music soonish, at least it seems like it. Periphery is recording either an ep or an lp, and I'm stoked. This year has been great for musicians I listen to and it's (only) just may. I've been playing/listening/reading/consuming a lot of childhood stuffs and I have mixed feelings about revisiting all of that. In the end I enjoyed most of it though. Being an adult means to accept that the past has passed and can't be returned, only revisited; it will never feel the same though. Actual ph stuff haha: the event hunt is taking a lot of time and part of me is asking myself why I'm torturing myself w/ a game, but the other one is patient since I should be spending less time here anyway. W/ my current schedule I have far too much freetime, but that time will probably shrink once the semester is closing in. I want to get more into reading again (poems esp) and my studies, as I'm straying further and further away from them, making them even less interesting w/ every passing day. It's not that boring after all. It doesn't mean I'm giving up games and stuff, I just want to divide my time more wisely. There are moments when I feel it wasting away. I want to leave bad things behind. Why take them w/ me when I need space to handle upcoming inconveniences? Forget and forgive, it's a senseless waste of energy. Let's hope life/myself won't pull me down too soon, I'm quite enjoying this small high and optimism. Well, you'll find out.  [Read more] |
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Waltz OFFLINE Forum Posts: 833 |
Posted: Sun, 29/04/2018 12:53 (7 Years ago) |
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I don't know why I never tried When we shed these bitter skins again All the reasons come to life, but now it's over I don't know why you never asked me And I don't know why you never cared When we hide these little sins again All the reasons have to die, but now it's over sometimes things change and you're not quick enough to adapt, and then you fall on your face. In that case you should just buckle up and stand up again, but I reached a point where I just can't seem to get up again. Or more precisely, I just don't feel like it anymore. What's the point of standing up to something or somebody if you'll just get knocked down again? When your path has been marked w/ one failure after the other? Things don't change. I don't know how to move on. I could embrace some kind of nihilism, or accept the fact that life just hurts most of the time. edit; tbqh the mood swings get better when I just get out of my way and do something. Yea, musing in my room doesn't really help, who would've figured. I just wish these feelings wouldn't pull me down this hard. Suffering is a thing But reckoning is the only reason why we suffer at all [Read more] |
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Waltz OFFLINE Forum Posts: 833 |
Posted: Sat, 21/04/2018 07:41 (7 Years ago) |
red cold riverthis love has led me to the end  these days I'm not even up to play this game, I just vegetate in my room. I'm tired of things. I don't want to talk to anyone or anything. I'm just numbing myself w/ loud music and energy drinks but I don't think it's working. Hopefully this mood won't last longer than a few days. I'm so tired Sing it for me, I can't erase the stupid things I say. You're better than me, I struggle just to find a better way [Read more] |
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Waltz OFFLINE Forum Posts: 833 |
Posted: Thu, 19/04/2018 05:57 (7 Years ago) |
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Waltz OFFLINE Forum Posts: 833 |
Posted: Mon, 16/04/2018 07:38 (7 Years ago) |
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★3ds: ★psvita: also seems like I gotta get my kh II back soon, ★ps4: I seriously hoarded so many games again and I love/hate it, because on one hand I should never be bored ever again now but on the other hand: I don't have infinite time, school starts soon enough and once it started I won't be able to play a lot of them. I guess I'm giving stationary consoles (ps2/ps4/wii/n64/...) my time first as I'm able to play handheld consoles (ps vita/3ds) on the go, to school and back. ☆this batch is considered done☆ [Read more] |
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Waltz OFFLINE Forum Posts: 833 |
Posted: Fri, 13/04/2018 07:45 (7 Years ago) |
vermilionFixed and crazy Aphid attraction  I think I'm starting to lose it Were you ever looking forward to something so much you forget about anything else in your life? Yea Attraction is an odd thing you see. It's hard to contain or control, but sometimes it just fades w/o a warning and you're left there, wondering how you've spent your last few months. I hate to be the way I am. On a lighter note, school started and my feelings are more than mixed, since I already got homework from the first few lectures. Well, nobody said it's gettong easier w/ time. I'm just hoping I can focus on my studies unlike last semester Ember came out yesterday and it's freaking great. Burnley has grown up, so much feelings, so much angst, I'm crying. Still the icey guitars, but damn the vocals improved so much, reminds me a lot of Dear Agony. I'm so happy they continue to make music. I will yell about the album here
"Lyra" is a soft intro, and Breaking Benjamin intros are always the best "Feed the wolf" is so passionate, great first track aaaa, slow burner "Red cold river" is exactly how the title is. Chilling guitars, soft singing. And RUUUUUUUUUUUUUN RED COLD RIVER, the signature growling hhh "Tourniquet" is an angsty love(?) ballad. Mood, honestly "Psycho" sounds like a nice jam, great riffs, but I get the feeling that this albums theme might be love and heartbreak ahah "The Dark of You" - hell, really experimental sound, reminds me of the spacey last album. Sad breakup tune, nice lyric fodder. "Down" gave me chills the first time. Energetic, powerful. "Torn in Two" >>fangirling intensifies<<<< sexy song. Burnley spices up his voice, I'm dead "Blood" plEASE assault me more w/ your instruments guys aaa, lots of feelings here, I like it. "Save Yourself" sounds edgy, reminds me of Dear Agony too, very heartfelt "Close Your Eyes" - the "hey guys we actually make heavy metal"-song. Sweet though, soft singing w/ powerful instrumentals. "Vega" is the outro track. Shivers. Sounds really epic. Yea sounds good! It's a situational album though, for when you feel down or heartbroken. I don't think you could listen to these tracks when you're happy. [Read more] |
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Waltz OFFLINE Forum Posts: 833 |
Posted: Sat, 07/04/2018 18:14 (7 Years ago) |
leather teethpokemon moon nicks primarina - Carmen ratticate (a) - DeGaulle ariados - Legatta crobat - Bites flygon - Sinus as much as I love silent hill 3, heather can go sit on a cactus Have we reached the end Are we lost to know Have we sealed our fate Nowhere left to go Though it's much too late This I hope to see There is still a chance left For you and me [Read more] |
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Waltz OFFLINE Forum Posts: 833 |
Posted: Tue, 03/04/2018 07:57 (7 Years ago) |
H U M A N. A F T E R. A L L.Tous les mêmes you know something is about to happen in your life when your taste in music drastically changes sapphire is my waifu and nobody can stop me I completely changed all my phone settings and even found some new settings but I just couldn't change my wallpaper haha, it's difficult to find something you like Un jour t’achètes, un jour tu aimes Un jour tu jettes, mais un jour tu payes Un jour tu verras, on s’aimera Mais avant on crèvera tous, comme des rats [Read more] |
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Waltz OFFLINE Forum Posts: 833 |
Posted: Sat, 24/03/2018 10:43 (7 Years ago) |
hollowthings going through my mind rn / vent (3/24/18) beware of the edge you can't wait on everything, some things have to be done by yourself and only by yourself should I lie and just pretend that I couldn't kill her some deny and search for things that never come around. Do I feel like a fool? The places I have ran to all my life have disappeared, and I owe this all to you; I'm feeling like I'm sinking, and nothing's there to catch me, keep me breathing I don't understand why you always push me away Why don't we end this lie, I can't pretend this time I need a friend to find my broken mind, before it falls to pieces I shouldn't be relaying on others to make me happy [Read more] |
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Waltz OFFLINE Forum Posts: 833 |
Posted: Sun, 18/03/2018 20:37 (7 Years ago) |
saturate(this is one of the really personal entries; it seems cryptic and is not really meant to be interpreted. Just want to get this off my chest. Future lei will understand.)18th March '18, day of the pickle &
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which is good. Some mistakes are meant to be made. I'm happy about how it went. I have no way of knowing how things will go on now, how much will change, but I really shouldn't worry. It's neither the end nor beginning of the world. [Read more] |
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Posted: Mon, 12/03/2018 17:53 (7 Years ago) |
rogues tag yourself do you ever feel like a broken baguette ~~musings~~ some songs are meant to be played for a certain someone (favourably under their window) I'm listening to trust fall on repeat for days, it's cheesy but it speaks to me in so many ways /// say about incubus whatever you want but boyd has some energy and feeling in his delivery, damn. I've been thinking about voices and delivery a lot recently, mainly b/c I'm still on semester break. Naturally everyone has their unique voice, but in music there were always some staples and styles you could pick up. There are also certain songs that are made by their deliverance, b/c they are different and contrast weaknesses/strengths of a certain singer in a particular way. Take vermillion pt. 2 e.g, taylor's voice is almost restrained by the acoustic, slow guitar but when he breaks at the end it sounds really genuine. my favourite kanye west album is yeezus, hands down. I know it's regarded as a career dip but I listen to that thing at least once a day haha doki doki literature club was a really rough ride, but I'm glad I played it If my pc wasn't powered by two potatoes and a lemon I would play other pc games but yea "Sleep doesn't help if it's your soul that's tired" [Read more] |
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Waltz OFFLINE Forum Posts: 833 |
Posted: Fri, 02/03/2018 07:12 (7 Years ago) |
all my senses-----space for random thoughts, I'm flooded w/ those recently----- after playing sh 2 again - alone, at night and w/ headphones this time - I can safely say that it's my favourite silent hill part. Disregarding the graphics it's themes are timeless. I adore the scenes near the end of the game where the tracks "True", "Betrayal" and "Black Fairy" perfectly flow into each other. During these, James realizes what he's done and it's just the greatest reveal. Sapphire is a beast?? She passively absorbs enemy's magicka everytime they move, and when she releases her ult it does damage to every one of them and interrupts their attacks. When two fox fires even silence their target. Sadly, she's the first one to die most of the time as she's kinda fragile. But yea they're not kidding w/ the op sx girls. why am I doing this to myself, watching creepy stuff on the internet. I get spooked so easily haha le perv still fills me w/ vigor -----Initially, I had a lot of things on my mind but then the influx of thoughts suddenly stopped----- [Read more] |
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Waltz OFFLINE Forum Posts: 833 |
Posted: Wed, 28/02/2018 21:00 (7 Years ago) |
chara things(cont. of to do list "sunset mission")  -ideas: zorua fusion (other mon as base) -missing art: cirocco midas miky bun -- paulette pint radames shii (h) sprouts stargaze umbra yule -missing bio: ~done [Read more] |
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Posted: Wed, 28/02/2018 18:39 (7 Years ago) |
 edit - an undertale monster design/character - any feral pokemon fused w/ castform - a jirachi, landorus (therian) or gardevoir design [themes; military, food, seasons, ...] [Read more] |
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Posted: Fri, 23/02/2018 18:48 (7 Years ago) |
sunset missionlist for things I wanna do during the holidays ♢ ♢ ♢ ♢ ~cons. done ♢ ♢ ~aaA ♢ ~ ♢ games to finish: see bitter valentine ♢ ph hunting ~cons. done ~~DONE~~writing gem  [Read more] |
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Waltz OFFLINE Forum Posts: 833 |
Posted: Mon, 19/02/2018 09:22 (7 Years ago) |
trust fallNot a divide, that's an illusion, a collective dream; you startle and wake Salute the abyss, smile and surrender Into a glimpse, the rapturous nothing Into the arms of your captor Into the arms of the all Into the arms of the all Into the arms of the all halleluja still makes me cry [Read more] |
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Posted: Sat, 17/02/2018 17:00 (7 Years ago) |
asdf"Vas❣a is pathethicc" the internet is one of the best things that could have happened to humanity but I also have to bleach my eyes and my browser history now Why do some ideas exist Just let it go man just let it go "but lei", you might say, "every ship in any fandom is valid and okay" nO I think they call it "weltschmerz" edit; but then you find art of a ship you never considered and now you just sit there like an idiot, giggling and grinning hEE [Read more] |
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Posted: Sat, 17/02/2018 13:26 (7 Years ago) |
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✧ Username: Leicester ✧ Character to draw: hee ✧ Style of art: chibi fullbody avatar sized (?; is that an acceptable order) ✧ Other?: your examples won me over, everything's so cute haha [Read more] |
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Posted: Fri, 16/02/2018 20:30 (7 Years ago) |
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edit ah -eyes, teeth and rings are rusted -teeth don't close/open properly -dark eyecircles -skin/material is rough/rugged, but sturdy > an undertale monster design/character > any feral pokemon fused w/ castform > a glaceon, leafeon, landorus (therian) or gardevoir design [themes; military, food, seasons, ...] [Read more] |
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Posted: Sun, 11/02/2018 23:08 (7 Years ago) |
it's raining somewhere elseno you know what, screw the lyrics, I don't deserve Wolves I'm in a dark place rn. Idk why I'm still caring at all Indecisive ugh Things have been a little inside out apologies  [glances up] not even a week into my semester break and I'm wrecking already, this will be though it's only a trust fall into the arms of all [Read more] |